We can’t heal without acknowledging the truth of racism in Pittsburgh

By Michael David Battle

Jan. 22, 2018

Michael David Battle
(Photo by Ryan Loew/PublicSource)

Let's talk about RACE
About this project

In second grade, a classmate called me an “oreo,” Black on the outside but with a voice that sounded white. I started hating to hear myself talk, to the point that I developed a stutter.

In fifth grade, I got into my first fist fight with my best friend; I lost, and my father humiliated me for it. I never let anyone beat me again.

In seventh grade, someone made fun of my feet. I stopped wearing sandals.

In eighth grade, my father’s demons finally destroyed the illusion of my family. I lied to everyone, including myself, to make up for his neglect and abuse.

In 12th grade, I was sexually assaulted by a friend. I convinced myself that it didn’t happen.

The truth is that I did not always know who I am. I don’t fully know myself even now. I do know that healing can only occur after we have confronted the truth. My experiences of being teased and bullied throughout my life made me a bit insecure. Insecurity made me doubt my abilities. I would dream big and be terrified by the dream, as if what I desired was too great for me.

Healing is really about a commitment to living in truth. With truth comes the destruction of false narratives. For instance, Christopher Columbus did not discover America. America did not exist. America is a made-up place. Just saying these things opens up new pathways in the brain for folks to ask new questions and gain a new understanding.

OK, now let’s get local. For the past 200-plus years, Pittsburgh has been building the lie that Pittsburgh is America’s Most Livable City. The question, which has become a growing chorus, is Pittsburgh? The most livable city for whom?

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Pittsburgh has long been known for having one of the highest infant mortality rates in the country for Black children. Black women have the lowest life expectancy. And, Black people in Pittsburgh have less access to housing, employment and education than their white neighbors.

Culturally, folks must acknowledge our history and how we got to this place. It took hundreds of years to build up this illusion. Now it will take some work (and a lot of courage) to destroy and dismantle what has been crafted. Our society must acknowledge that everyone, disproportionately Black folks, in America are living in trauma — historic and current, as individuals and as a collective.

American culture is rooted in violence and fear. We can end that. We can choose something different for ourselves and for our children. We can create something different. And, that begins with acknowledging the truth — speaking on our pain and trauma and vowing to do something different. We have to be brave.

I do know that
healing can only occur
after we have
confronted the truth.

I’d like to see Black folks in positions of leadership really step into their power, leveraging their power in real ways and not pandering to the dominant culture. I'd like to see Black people affirming the lives and lived experiences of being Black in this toxic culture. And I'd like to see Black Pittsburghers challenging the systems of oppression that keep others who look like us from repeating the same cycles of violence with one another.

And so, I work in my community.

I'm a healer and an artist. My work is about creating spaces of revolutionary transformation and vulnerability to heal wounds and trauma and empower folks to take charge of their own lives. In practice, my work looks like connecting folks to medical services, housing, leadership development and mentorship; hosting spaces for fellowship; making art; opening marketplaces for QTPOC (queer trans people of color) to connect and sell their art; traveling to new places, like the White House, with young people; and carving out a space for folks to dream and imagine what they want for their lives.

Get involved

“Let’s Talk About Race” face to face at Repair the World in East Liberty on Thursday, Feb. 15, 2018, from 6-8 p.m.

There will be a guided discussion with a panel featuring Pittsburghers who have been leading the conversation. Join us; it’s free and light refreshments will be served. Register here.

Community advocacy is important because it affirms the lives and lived experiences of people when the dominant narrative would rather tell you that you don’t know yourself or what you have experienced.

Real community work is here to shed light on the truth.

I do struggle, though.

I struggle gathering the tools and resources to do the healing work necessary for my community. I struggle finding time and energy to do all of the work. But my personal mission is to be a truth-teller, to speak up for those who are not in the room and don’t have access to the same spaces, to share the ways that white supremacy and oppression impact all of us and keep us all in pain.

The greatest pain is knowing the truth and living a lie.

Rev. Michael David Battle holds a Master's in Public Administration and is a bodhisattva, artist, radical, thinker, father and lover. Michael David invests in community through art that centers on lives and lived experiences. Michael David creates spaces to celebrate individuals and radically transform the impacts of trauma and violence. He can be reached at michael@tabernacle.life.

This project was edited by Halle Stockton, Mila Sanina and Brittany Hailer.
Photography and video by Ryan Loew.
Design by Natasha Khan.
Development by Natasha Khan and Cameron Scott.

Nominate someone

Who in Pittsburgh is committed to fighting for racial equity and social justice? Who has a valuable perspective on racial issues in our region? We're looking for nominations. Introduce us or simply nominate someone you know, heard of or... maybe it's you. Let us know by emailing halle@publicsource.org.

We will listen and share these conversations to continue the focus on race in Pittsburgh. You can be a part of this movement to destigmatize discussions about race in your community and make strides toward an equitable future. We look forward to hearing from you.